Clarity

I have successfully gotten the old relationship out of my head. It's great to be single for Christmas, but I have been meeting women who are really hurting for companionship. Of course, they are looking for someone ideal, has money, will spoil them, etc.

It took me a long time to realize that I wanted to be single for life. Women will come and go, but you are always the same, so you have to decide if you want to dedicate many years of your life to being basically a professional companion/slave to a woman.

Don't forget that although there are obvious joys to being with a woman, they are quickly outweighed by the control, nagging, lack of freedom - and her need to always be changing you. Of course, she doesn't know what she wants, so she will always be working to change you into something she thinks she wants, but doesn't really want. It can be confusing.

Stay single, don't get married.

Working a New Business - and Random other Things

Just starting working with a business partner and things are going well. I haven't had time to post regularly, but I'm going to - just to keep the discussion alive.

As some of you know, I've been having endless debates with a woman I was dating a couple of years ago. She wanted to get married immediately and have children. No thanks to that. We did have very good chemistry, but she was really kind of a nut-bar, if you know what I mean...

Anyway, she is very much a part of the literary world and has been sending messages couched in some of her opinion pieces. She even uses my name directly and talks about a certain "type" of man...of course I fit the description very well. She knows I'm going to be in her town over Christmas, but I won't be getting into contact.

You see, the worst thing about revisiting an old relationship is that it isn't a second-time around, it is simply a continuance of the same old, same old. Women feel that if you come back into their lives, you might be "the One" which is a scary thought. What scared me...temporarily...but what scared me was that I was feeling the same things as well. I really should go and drink a lot to get this woman out of my head.

Tequila, maybe.

No, definitely.